This is the first time I’ve blogged this year. Things have changed. A lot.
The start of the new year saw us move home. That was totally stressful and took an age. Baby Bird has started a new nursery which is actually going really well. She’s in her element there and we’re very pleased with her progress. We call her Little Miss Chatterbox these days as she never shuts up. That’s not a bad thing at all despite the way I phrased that!
The final thing is that we have started trying for baby number two.
This hasn’t been an easy decision for me as I still feel like I need to lose the weight from the first pregnancy before piling on weight from another one. I’m trying my hardest with the weight loss but it’s difficult. I do really well for a week or two and then fall off the wagon. I’m back on the wagon at the moment doing the Special K eating plan for 2 weeks and then calorie counting for the next 2 before repeating the cycle again. I’ve only just started this so we’ll see how it goes.
We’ve just entered our 4th cycle of trying to conceive following a chemical pregnancy. That was devastating.
On Sunday 13th April after feeling ill, crampy and having cravings for Pepsi Max, I decided to take a pregnancy test using one of the First Response Early Results. The ones that say you can test upto 6 days before a missed period. I wasn’t surprised to see a faint 2nd line on the test indicating that I was indeed pregnant.
I came downstairs and said to the husband ‘I think we might be pregnant’. He had a look at the test and could see a faint line also, gave me a hug and a kiss and we were elated. The following day I tested again with the same brand of test and whilst the line was no darker, it was certainly positive and I then used a Clearblue Digital. This came back ‘Not Pregnant’. I was a little deflated but knew that these were not as sensitive as the First Response Early Result tests so tried to put it at the back of mind and try again in a few days.
That didn’t go so well.
I had a really bad feeling that this pregnancy was going to disappear. I’d heard so many stories of chemical pregnancies on the trying to conceive forums I visit and thought I bet this is what’s happening to me. On Tuesday 15th April, I tested with a First Response Early Result test and a Superdrug test. Again, the lines were there but no darker than the ones I had taken days before them. One could even argue that the first First Response Early Result test I took on the Sunday was darker than the one on the Tuesday.
I was really starting to worry. I just knew something wasn’t right. On Wednesday, I felt really ill. I was having stomach cramps, a bad headache and felt dizzy. That afternoon I started spotting. I tested when I got home from work that afternoon with a First Response Early Result and nothing. Barely a line.
This confirmed my worst fear. This was a chemical pregnancy.
The start of a new cycle began on Friday and all symptoms of pregnancy have now completely disappeared.
I don’t think I will ever test before my period is due again as this has been soul destroying.